tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-44003152088729106572024-03-12T23:01:35.581-07:00The Delicate Balance: Being a Spouse of a Person With Type 1 DiabetesThis site is for anyone who is living with someone dealing with type 1 diabetes. We know that diabetes is "family disease" and that it affects everyone around the PWD in varying degrees. The mission of this site is to provide an outlet and support for people partnering in their loved one's fight to manage diabetes well ... and to share those tips, tricks and strategies to keep not only our loved one with diabetes, but ourselves, healthy and happy.Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-91465278189087212002014-08-01T11:42:00.000-07:002016-02-05T16:19:44.662-08:00Let's Talk About Sex....<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Listen, I'm as private about my sex life as the next person... it's taken me a long time to blog about it because it's something I don't feel needs to be shared widely on a regular basis! However, lately I've realized that there just isn't enough out there that speaks to some of the challenges that we (those of us who love someone with type 1) have in this arena. It's like people just don't want to talk about it.<br />
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So, let's talk about sex. First of all, let me preface this by saying that my husband and I have been together a looonnngg time - 25 years in fact (married for 19). And you expect there to be ups and down, peaks and valleys when it comes to our sex life. Lucky for us, we haven't experienced many valleys, and have been able to maintain a really healthy, active sexual relationship. There are a few things though, that diabetes loves to throw in the mix ... and I thought it worthwhile to share one of these with you. <br />
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The first few times it happened I thought it was just a coincidence ... but when the lows - and I mean significant lows, the 48s, 35s and lower - started happening fairly often during sex, I started to take note. There is nothing that kills the mood more than discovering that your partner is not all "there" while you're making love, and honestly, as a woman this can be a little frightening. I'm lucky in that my husband hasn't been in any way aggressive or belligerent during these lows, just somewhat silly and sometimes truly out of it. But it is hard to discover that in such an intimate moment, you're suddenly the only recognizable one present. It's an awful feeling. <br />
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Then of course there is just the break in momentum, even for more mild lows, to treat the issue, get the juice, etc. Takes the wind out of everyone's sails, and it is highly unlikely you'll get it back and continue where you left off. Even if you and your partner try to pretend like it's no big deal, it is. Talk about coitus interruptus! Thanks for that diabetes.<br />
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Recently, my husband figured something out - and this was a huge "ah-ha" (and I don't know why we didn't think of this before!). He discovered by testing his sugars directly before, and then directly after we had sex, that his numbers consistently dropped <b>100 points or more</b> when we'd made love. We never would have guessed it was that much! And we're not talking aerobic, crazy sex, just normal... the good stuff. I know people talk about this being attributed to the exercise involved in the activity, but we've come to realize that it's more than that ... it's actually more related to the emotional state of relaxation and happiness that makes my husband's numbers drop. Throw the exercise on top of that (and however much insulin he recently bolused), and you have a potent mix for a pretty good low.<br />
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In the past we used to check his sugars before sex, just to make sure he was in the normal range (i.e., somewhere over 100)... but now what we've figured out is that this isn't sufficient! Where we thought he was good - say around 140 - having sex would drop him down to the 50s, 40s, and lower during our encounter. We have discovered that he actually has to be in the high 100s/ low 200s for this to really work and for him to stay on an even keel during sex. So now it's a trip to the kitchen for some juice prior to any action. This kind of takes the spontaneity out of it, sure... but it can also become part of the anticipation. <br />
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And anyway, I'd much rather be secure in the knowledge that my husband's not going to disappear during sex and become the low version of himself that I need to deal with. I also will know that we will be seeing things through to completion... no interruptus involved. If you know what I mean. :)<br />
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<br />Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-26012173951596036042013-12-04T14:22:00.000-08:002013-12-04T14:22:41.684-08:00Seeing lows from other side<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I recently stumbled upon a video on YouTube that shows a man in the throes of a low blood sugar whose wife and daughter are trying to help him come back up ... it was interesting to say the least. You can see it here: <a href="http://youtu.be/pC_0CI9jV6A">http://youtu.be/pC_0CI9jV6A</a><br />
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My husband Tony (who has type 1) and I watched this together, and to be honest it was difficult to watch someone else going through something so personal ... and something so familiar. Tony watched quietly and then he had some really interesting, and I think important, feedback. <br />
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In the video you can see the man sitting on the floor trying to work himself back into a normal state. He is refusing help, which of course just makes everyone want to help him more. According to Tony, the very best thing that we loved ones can do in that situation is to give our PWD space and some time to adjust.<br />
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He shared that when he is having a low like that, his brain slows down and takes five times as long to process even the simplest commands. And not only that, but when someone interjects repeatedly ("drink the juice"... "drink the juice"), it forces him to have to START OVER and reboot the process with every interjection ... so whatever progress he has made towards stabilizing (whether that means being focused enough to <i>take </i>the juice, or to tell me what he needs), the interjection causes him to have to start from zero again and work himself back up....every single time.<br />
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So instead of helping him, any continual prompts are merely <i>prolonging the process</i>, and possibly making the low worse. This was a huge "ah-ha" for me. And we've been dealing with this for 16 years!<br />
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He said that the best thing I can do during a low like that is to give him space and quiet. To <i>leave</i> the juice with him, accessible, and then leave him be. Stay nearby (obviously), but give him the time and quiet that his brain needs to put two and two together and try and treat his low by himself. He assures me that this will greatly shorten the process.<br />
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This isn't as easy as it sounds! My knee-jerk response to a significant low episode is to get involved, but I've learned over the years that my anxiety doesn't help anything. Obviously if Tony were <i>incapable </i>of drinking the juice or needed a more significant degree of assistance, I would intervene as needed. But this little bit of recent insight helps me, so that perhaps the low wouldn't progress to that. <br />
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Can any of you relate to that?<br />
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<br />Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com17tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-42597915821402772752013-08-22T12:41:00.001-07:002013-08-22T12:41:07.919-07:00Love How This Girl is Taking On The TSA!I stumbled upon this video this morning of a 16-year old girl who is taking on the TSA (Transportation Security Administration) about their lack of knowledge of how insulin pumps are affected by the full-body scanners at the airport:<br />
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I am SO happy to see this getting some press. The truth is that YES, insulin pumps are not just affected by the full-body scanners, but they can in fact malfunction in dangerous ways (i.e., start bolusing out insulin without being asked to - not good when you're at 35,000 feet). I have heard this from multiple PWDs who have experienced malfunctions after going through the scanners, ranging from mild to severe.<br />
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I travel a lot for work, and recently I asked one of the TSA agents if they had heard about insulin pumps being damaged by the scanners, and he said no, he hadn't heard that. Then he proceeded to tell me that it was 100% safe to go through the scanner with your pump ... which I wasn't going to argue with at that point (especially since I was travelling alone, without my husband with type 1).<br />
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Now, we are about to take off for a 3-week trip to Spain and Italy in a few weeks, and this video was just another good reminder to make sure that we take some information with us to ensure that if we run into TSA agents at airport security who are not aware of the problem with the scanners and Tony's insulin pump (which I am guessing there are many), that we have documentation to back us up. We will ALWAYS request a pat-down from this point on, to ensure that nothing interferes with the pump's ability to do it's job.<br />
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Even after 17 years of living with my husband's type 1, I am amazed at the lack of knowledge and understanding that people have around diabetes. Even people who should know! Like TSA agents for pete's sake!<br />
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<br />Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-5866131207078960332012-10-29T21:00:00.000-07:002012-10-29T21:00:31.275-07:00A Chance to Connect With Others Who "Get It"<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I had the absolute pleasure of attending the "Taking Control of Your Diabetes (TCOYD)" Conference here in San Diego this past weekend. It's in its 9th year, and was my fourth time attending. It is a great, empowering day for people to learn more and connect with others around diabetes, and I'm always happy to be a part of it. Rather than try to explain what it's all about, here is a snippet of what a day at TCOYD is like:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Wonderfully, this year they had a "Type 1 Track", with workshops and content aimed specifically for people with type 1 (the people with type 2 had their own, unique track). I was asked to help run a breakout workshop for spouses/partners (another first this year!)... and I was honored to participate.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It was encouraging and extremely validating to share my experience and to hear others' experience of loving someone with type 1. It made me see how much we all have in common, no matter if our partners are men or women, in good control or not, have had diabetes 2 years, 10 years or 50 years! The main commonality of course - the one that had everyone nodding in agreement - was the issue of <b>anxiety </b>... our anxiety over lows, over our partner driving, over them being home alone with our small kids, over them being okay when we're out of town for work, over them taking care of themselves, over what the future holds... etc... I'm sure you all know what I mean. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Other issues came up as well, particularly with the older participants in the group (although this is still relevant for us all) - for example, how to advocate for your partner to maintain control of their insulin delivery/glucose monitoring if they're in the hospital (and help them advocate for themselves)? We also talked about strategies to be prepared for lows, and best ways to help our loved ones in those moments that they can't take care of themselves.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I think that some of the best discussion came when we started to talk about ourselves, and our <b>own</b> <b>self-care</b>, which often goes to the way-side when we spend so much time worrying about our partner's needs. Oftentimes this can be a weight that we carry that we do not communicate... because why would we? They're the ones dealing with the diabetes, not us, right? <i>However</i>, we also need to realize that type 1 is difficult on us too, and there is no better place to express that than in a supportive group of people who "get it".</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">For me, one of the biggest parts of this journey of type 1 diabetes in the last 15 years has simply been figuring out my role, and how I fit into the picture. This was another issue that seemed to resonate with the group. How much "control" do I take? How can I best partner with my husband to make this work? How much involvement does he actually need? It's nice to know that others feel the same, and talking about solutions and sharing thoughts is always incredibly helpful. I am grateful to the participants of the workshop (and their brave spouses/partners with type 1 who came to join us!) for being open and sharing their own experiences. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">One other thing I want to make sure to mention is that the wonderful non-profit organization the <a href="http://behavioraldiabetes.org/">Behavioral Diabetes Institute</a> (who I've referred to many times, since I know the founders and have been involved with it since it's beginnings... and which really is the <i>only</i> organization that deals with peoples' unmet emotional and psychological needs around diabetes), is finally developing an online support program for spouses (I am thrilled)! However, to make this the most impactful and <i>useful</i> program they can, <b>they need your help</b>! The diabetes psychologists behind the program's development (the fabulous <a href="http://behavioraldiabetesinstitute.org/about-Behavioral-Diabetes-Institute-Team.html">Drs. Bill Polonsky and Susan Guzman</a>) have created an online survey to gather as many spouse's/partner's feedback as they can to customize the online support program... and they would welcome (and need) your input! The survey only takes about 10 minutes to fill out, and is wonderful - I've already taken it and given my feedback. You can find the survey here:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Please do fill it out and let your voice be heard. It will only help! The more support out there we can create for us spouses/partners, the better.</span></div>
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Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-28688301321902091742012-09-10T22:02:00.000-07:002012-09-10T22:02:16.094-07:00Casualty of Diabetes: Silliness<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEia2OjpYM9-RmWi4wVTrXLjWyfHkngmmM1tNUEvisHdzmNx1jSAeedSaOoryLF_jb0ecUzyiynp6cnrFWnZPKPVqyiW8n9vtOQ5O3dWNhuKYMlzYxHFMeW1vnGHrtOiEwcCVcFRaQ2ZEgM/s1600/silly_face.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5521630632693493714" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEia2OjpYM9-RmWi4wVTrXLjWyfHkngmmM1tNUEvisHdzmNx1jSAeedSaOoryLF_jb0ecUzyiynp6cnrFWnZPKPVqyiW8n9vtOQ5O3dWNhuKYMlzYxHFMeW1vnGHrtOiEwcCVcFRaQ2ZEgM/s200/silly_face.jpg" style="cursor: hand; cursor: pointer; float: left; height: 144px; margin: 0 10px 10px 0; width: 240px;" /></a><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">In the 15 years since my husband Tony developed type 1 diabetes, there have been many ways that the disease has infiltrated and affected our lives. Most of these things have been obvious, and include much of what I've shared</span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> in this blog ... the anxieties, the work it takes to maintain balance, the challenges that daily living with diabetes takes, from both our sides.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It took me a while to realize that there was something else that had changed in our lives post-diagnosis ... it was very subtle, but I realized that I missed it very much. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Yes, silliness. The ability for Tony to loosen up and be silly, be spontaneous, be goofy ... without me automatically feeling that need to go on the defensive, check his pupils, question his sugar level. At certain times this need is magnified - for example if alcohol is involved. However, it is true at any time, regardless of where we are or what we are doing. What a sad thing for him to lose that feeling of spontaneity, that ability to have fun without having his intent or mental status checked! What a sad thing for us as a couple to lose that innate sense of fun that we had before he was diagnosed, that sense of ease with loosening up and being in the moment.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It struck me that this may be a quiet, disconcerting thing for a lot of us spouses... and that we may mourn the loss of this in our lives more than we realized. At least that's true for me, and I'm sure it's true for my husband.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The question of course is how to combat the feeling of loss that may accompany this experience. How do we build in ways to get past our own anxieties and read any given situation for what it is? How do we best communicate with our partners to try and understand where they are at?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Unfortunately I don't have any answers on this one... but I'm sure that some of you may! Feel free to comment and share some of your thoughts or strategies on how you've managed this in your own lives. We'd love to know.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-79960547016418109952012-03-07T11:42:00.007-08:002012-03-07T15:52:31.982-08:00Taking the Plunge<span style="font-style: normal; "><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEineFtFV_uKiNJACAtiXBX2OIoCSfAY5T_AsfQtkgFPkmCVOSq-y0n0f48yVGAyRyghwRfUb2Y_5LL_VtcV_atAoCN_-ZbcYcJC5n0B4iHoeJP_v828Nx6RAQcMZFvNosDcBwOwBX7_NUE/s1600/2011-07-02_13-46-18_38.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 113px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEineFtFV_uKiNJACAtiXBX2OIoCSfAY5T_AsfQtkgFPkmCVOSq-y0n0f48yVGAyRyghwRfUb2Y_5LL_VtcV_atAoCN_-ZbcYcJC5n0B4iHoeJP_v828Nx6RAQcMZFvNosDcBwOwBX7_NUE/s200/2011-07-02_13-46-18_38.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5717243381616027490" /></a>Since we have diabetes in the family, my husband and I have decided to take our two children, ages 4 and 9, to the <a href="https://www.diabetestrialnet.org/index.htm">TrialNet</a> event here in San Diego tomorrow, where they will be screened for the antibodies responsible for the development of type 1. Not only will we be contributing to a very important study on how to prevent, delay and reverse the progression of type 1 diabetes, we will be finding out some critical information on our own kids' likelihood to develop the disease.<br /><br />But I'm petrified.<br /><br />It's not logical, I know ... but as a mother I am terrified to find out whether one of my beautiful children has the markers that mean they will develop type 1 diabetes in the next 5 or so years. Sometimes the fear takes over rational thought... the idea of such little people having to deal with this disease on an hourly basis makes me want to weep. And I know that my husband feels the same way... and even <span style="font-style:italic;">moreso</span>, because if one of our kids does test positive, then somehow he feels it is "his fault", since his genes are the ones bringing diabetes into their lives...<br /><br />However, my husband and I are choosing not to stay in the fear, not to bury our heads in the sand, thinking that </span><i>not </i>knowing is better than knowing. Five years ago perhaps - when there wasn't anything out there to DO with the knowledge ... then yes, we would have had a reason to avoid the information. But now, with the advances in research and the clinical trials out there that are helping if not to completely prevent the onset of type 1, to postpone it by a number of years, we have no excuse not to do this.<div><br />And so it is time to face the fear ... to take the plunge. Hopefully our children will be one of the 96% of family members of people with type 1 who do <i>not</i> test positive for the antibodies (96 people out of 100 test negative), and all this fear will be a moot point.</div><div><br /></div><div>But if they do test positive, or one of them does, we will face it the same way that we faced my husband's original diagnosis 15 years ago - together, with strength, and with positive action.<br /><br /></div>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-17809429284821464482011-12-15T09:39:00.000-08:002011-12-19T17:41:27.514-08:00How Do Our Spouses w/ Diabetes Feel About Us?I just stumbled across this video from dLife, where PWDs are interviewed about how they feel about their spouse's (usually well-meaning) intervention into their daily diabetes management. I find it really interesting! I think that often our spouses are not necessarily that forth-coming with how our efforts make them feel... <br /><br />Take a look and see what you think... any of this sound familiar in your house?<br /><br /><iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/D9pKp6NLVg8" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-66654738184357097612011-10-13T10:01:00.000-07:002011-10-13T10:48:42.082-07:00Rude Awakening<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgeUlqGaZ5yirQAVFF-gBDoPA00BxIGculRUP6Bu1p1gt0Aqvg2cjyxWrF6d52VDE0h6Uuh3IMjRyHqAQ2V4RA6TIdRYBvtWv1Rdo1qNZa6K2TMORDNis4k20H-hx5ok8GdUkezRK3HjnQ/s1600/Wide-Awake.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 180px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgeUlqGaZ5yirQAVFF-gBDoPA00BxIGculRUP6Bu1p1gt0Aqvg2cjyxWrF6d52VDE0h6Uuh3IMjRyHqAQ2V4RA6TIdRYBvtWv1Rdo1qNZa6K2TMORDNis4k20H-hx5ok8GdUkezRK3HjnQ/s200/Wide-Awake.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5663024564430581714" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" >There's nothing that snaps you awake at 3am quite as quickly as discovering that your spouse / partner / loved one with diabetes is in the throes of a serious low. </span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >It happened to us just the other night. For some reason I woke up at 3am, and in attempting to get my husband to <i>move over</i> (he was like a dead weight, which should have been my first clue) I reached over and found him drenched in that cold sweat ... hands, legs, neck, arms, everywhere. And it was bad, a LOT of sweat... which isn't normal for him, even when he's low. I was suddenly wide awake, on alert, realizing that he needed my help.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >My husband has had type 1 now for 14 years. Through these years we've had our share of diabetes highs and lows, but luckily only a handful of really serious episodes. I realized in an instant the other night that this was one of those episodes. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >A few years ago I would have completely panicked, and wasted time trying to get him to test his sugars (which he was completely unable to do), or talking AT him to do things... "drink the juice", "test", or peppering him with questions as to how he was feeling. But recently I've learned from him, particularly from his last serious low, and I kept all that he told me in mind as I navigated this critical situation.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >Firstly, I kept it calm and quiet. My husband shared with me after his last serious low that when I talk to him during those episodes it is as if 20 people are talking to him at once, and he cannot process what is being said. So instead, I got up and went to the kitchen for juice, no words spoken. I came back to bed and simply held my husband's head up and supported his shoulders so that he could drink the juice without spilling. The only thing I said to him (quietly) was "you need juice", and then sat behind him, held the glass and fed him sips of juice every few seconds. I had to keep him upright because he wanted to just slip back down into a sleeping position, but I made sure he could still drink. As long as the majority of the juice was going down, and I knew it would do the job and I wouldn't have to hunt for the glucagon. I did this for about 30 minutes, quietly and calmly, trusting that he would slowly come back up ... which he did.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span">The one thing I also realized is that I had no idea how to turn off his insulin pump. I didn't want to start pushing buttons because I <i>certainly</i> didn't want to end up bolusing more insulin into his system. Short of ripping his site out, I didn't know how to stop the insulin! This was a rude awakening as well - that as prepared as I thought I was, I had overlooked this one important factor. </span><span class="Apple-style-span">That was the first thing I had him show me the next morning - and I am now an expert at suspending his pump. But it reminded me of the things I forget to know, until I'm in a situation where I need to know them. Not good - better to be prepared ahead of time and save yourself the stress.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >Luckily my husband came back up and came to his senses - by the time he tested he was at 87, definitely a comfortable zone for me. Within an hour we were both able to go back to sleep knowing that all was well.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >What I find interesting though, is that even though everything went smoothly and turned out well, I've still been processing the episode for the last two days, going over it in my head. I think the thing that plagues me the most is the "what if"... what if I hadn't woken up? what if I had been travelling and wasn't home? (we also have two small children, so this is of course a concern) what if it had progressed further?</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >The funny thing about these episodes is that they are critical <i>in the moment</i>, but once the moment is over, they are done. You go on with your life. But I think what I realize as I write this down, is that the episodes are over physically, but not emotionally. These episodes stay with my in my psyche, as I'm sure they do with every other spouse out there. It is difficult to see your loved one in such a state of need, and for some that may wear them down. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >But I choose to look at this a different way. What I really see it coming down to is partnership. I suffer from migraine headaches - the kind where you're completely incapacitated and unable to function - and every time that I've had an episode in the last 20+ years that we've been together, my husband has <i>stepped up</i>, and taken care of me, our kids, and everything else as I've needed him to. His lows are similar to me - sometimes he needs <i>me</i> to step up, and when he does <i>I am there</i>. It is part of our partnership as a couple, recognizing that we truly need and are there to look out for each other. It's what helps me keep these emotional memories of his serious lows in check.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >The lows <i>are what they are</i>. The experience of supporting him through one<i> is what it is</i>. But how I choose to frame them in my psyche is up to me. And you.</span></div>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-41838237986479187942010-06-22T15:37:00.000-07:002010-06-22T16:08:00.984-07:00How is living with your partner's diabetes for YOU? Tell us more ...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgAuIlWMeOaHwQ7gQXccmA2HCs2-U1Taj5Dru1Zm7yShxHdHOfAn7DlzLtBPzjKSGGlkuMi4XwJFOHYKIyroXG9AUx6XcRRc5hRKzgpyqimm2hLVbGvHcTV3j73BGMWpe6fapu0YKKx3zI/s1600/typing.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 131px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgAuIlWMeOaHwQ7gQXccmA2HCs2-U1Taj5Dru1Zm7yShxHdHOfAn7DlzLtBPzjKSGGlkuMi4XwJFOHYKIyroXG9AUx6XcRRc5hRKzgpyqimm2hLVbGvHcTV3j73BGMWpe6fapu0YKKx3zI/s200/typing.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5485733787516983106" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Since I've been receiving some wonderful comments and email from the posts that I've put out here on my experiences of living with someone with type 1, </span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I thought I'd ask </span></b><i><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">you</span></b></i><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> all to share some of your experiences too.</span></b><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Although we know that we are not alone in living with someone with diabetes, we also know that it can be somewhat isolating at times. There aren't nearly as many resources or knowledgeable sources for the kind of specific issues we as spouses, partners and loved ones of people with diabetes face. One of my biggest goals in starting this blog was to provide a place that people might find some <b>commonality </b>with their own experience - a chance to hear from someone who "gets it". But I would love to hear from more of </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">you </span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">- you all have as much experience, wisdom and "lessons learned" as I do.<b> Let's hear them!</b> Let's put it out there and see if indeed there ARE things that we can enlighten each other on... find support for ... get validation of...<br /></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">So I would ask: How is it for you in your daily living with a person with diabetes? What are the most critical issues you face? The biggest challenges? The most powerful wins? The biggest anxieties?</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">How much do you feel "control" issues affect your relationship (yours or theirs!)? Are you happy with how your loved one takes care of themselves? How much does diabetes-related fear and anxiety affect your overall wellbeing? How well do you both communicate around their diabetes? Are there any "hidden emotions" at play in the relationship around the diabetes? Are they (or you) getting "burned out" by it all? How do you cope?</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">What else? I'd love to hear your story.</span></div><div><br /></div></div>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com28tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-68925877752516589742010-03-28T18:08:00.001-07:002010-04-05T16:30:52.495-07:00Lows, lows, lows...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQDmlCvIzDORK1GtRXKl0hk-tNukdmpbg6IlzOx_ogeDGXYVDFY4_9ljWAJvhja8pF8qiXmFXyB4-PF3kPk1wIgM8AH1iiczhPjQPQj5Iwtj-DJ3Ywsc1-RAVSCJPZFyJFvjw9xccAgVA/s1600/guilt2.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 126px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQDmlCvIzDORK1GtRXKl0hk-tNukdmpbg6IlzOx_ogeDGXYVDFY4_9ljWAJvhja8pF8qiXmFXyB4-PF3kPk1wIgM8AH1iiczhPjQPQj5Iwtj-DJ3Ywsc1-RAVSCJPZFyJFvjw9xccAgVA/s200/guilt2.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5453856951922059074" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Well, it happened again today. One of those scary low blood sugars in my husband when I least expected it. This was a bad one - I am lucky to say that in our 12 years of dealing with his diabetes (since he was diagnosed), I've only really dealt with a handful of "serious" lows... the kind that make your stomach knot and your knees weaken, when you realize the place your loved one is in and you don't know </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">exactly </span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">how much time you have to intervene before it gets to the calling-the-paramedics kind of low. I'm sure you all know what I mean.</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Luckily we were in a stable place when this happened - at home, the kids happily engrossed in a movie - so that we were able to move through it and come out the other side quickly. Funny thing, because of the </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">kind</span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> of low this was - i.e., my husband got so low that he was not making sense, lost his judgement of things, and was becoming combative at my attempts to get him to test or drink some juice - and because we sat together as he was coming back up and out of it, we had a chance to talk about what had happened (once he was relatively normal again) and to figure out what we could do differently next time. It was a real learning for me, and I wanted to share with you my thoughts, in case it might help you in the same situation.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Learning Point #1: Back off, way off</span></b></div><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">As I realized how low my husband was (even though he refused to test or let me <i>help </i>him test in that state, which just validated how low he was), my anxiety kicked into gear. My hands started to shake. I tried to stay calm and "convince" him to have some juice simply because I wanted some too ... and I placed it on the table in front of him. However, the more I asked him to drink it, the more he rebuffed it and pushed it away. The more I gave his meter to him at the table, the more he refused to do it, saying "I didn't get it!" (whatever that meant at that time, I'm still not sure). Luckily, finally, he gave in and tested his blood and drank the juice - and then almost immediately started showing signs of coming back up and out of the low. In the same minute he went from fighting me to a sudden awareness of what was going on - when he looked over at me and said "I'm acting stupid, aren't I?", the relief that flooded over me was palpable.</span></span></b></div><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></b></div><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">As he was coming up though, he told me something interesting - and important. He said that when I talk to him, or try to give him juice when he's like that, <i>it's like 20 people being in the room talking to him at the same time. </i>He said what he really needs at that time is <i>less</i> stimulation, because being that low is like "sensory overload" for him. It is too hard for him to process anything, and he said the best thing I could have done is left the room. Of course I said I couldn't do that, not when he's like that ... and then he agreed but said that I could have just left the immediate space, maybe sat further away and given him the time and space he needed to do it himself. It is difficult to think about doing this, but something I will think about and try to do appropriately in the future. Takes a leap of faith on my part though, I tell you!</span></span></b></div><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></b></div><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Learning Point #2: TRUST</span></b></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Something interesting that came out of this today too, was that before I knew about his situation, my husband was<b> trying to wait until I left the room before treating his low</b> - one of the reasons he got so low I think! Once he was back up again I asked him <i>why? </i>It became the same answer - he didn't want me to "freak out" or pressure him. However, we were able to have a discussion around it again that reinforced the fact that diabetes is a "team effort", and it takes <i>trust. </i>He needs to trust that I have his best interests at heart when my guidance during his lows becomes "intense" (as he perceives it), and <i>I</i> need to trust that he will be able to take care of things before they progress to that point. And I need to give him the space he needs to be able to do just that.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">And I'll try, I really will.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Anyone else know what I mean?</span></div>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-61332933626292402602010-02-20T10:34:00.001-08:002010-02-20T12:46:09.814-08:00Diabetes-Related Anxiety #1: Driving<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh60fZEBjvPkLG7WppSC8UuMNA3ntR5LMbpzzEq6sUnKVrcL5PTLk_ZgBrRp0AbNBTjtRUIbPwWZ3AyWYetiAtG_MpjLYgr4IX1MjoER5-7QXf9YFdciR8Emb_H4CzpYYCUA-dFgSggWR0/s1600-h/driving2.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh60fZEBjvPkLG7WppSC8UuMNA3ntR5LMbpzzEq6sUnKVrcL5PTLk_ZgBrRp0AbNBTjtRUIbPwWZ3AyWYetiAtG_MpjLYgr4IX1MjoER5-7QXf9YFdciR8Emb_H4CzpYYCUA-dFgSggWR0/s200/driving2.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5440396085201763922" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I think that in this daily journey of living with a PWD, one of the hardest things for me to manage my anxiety around is <b>driving</b>. It seems like such a small thing, right? It is so much a part of our daily lives (especially here in Southern California!), something that we <i>must</i> do, something that is a given. But it is something that I still have difficulty with, even though it has been 13 years since my husband was diagnosed with type 1 and he is in very good control of his diabetes.</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Now of course I'm not talking about <i>my</i> driving - that I'm good with! I'm talking about when my husband gets behind the wheel ... either with us as a family, or when he's commuting to work alone. Even though he is very proactive about checking his numbers and being safe in the car - he really is a great driver - it is that 5% "possibility" of problems that wears on me ... that little "diabetes fairy" that pings PWD on the shoulder occasionally and makes their numbers go completely out of whack without a lot of warning. <i>This</i> is what worries me.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b>Case in point: </b>on a recent drive up to Los Angeles with my husband and I and our two little ones in the back seat, we were on the 405 freeway going about 70 miles an hour when my husband asked me to open up a juice box for him. I immediately jumped to attention, because this time I hadn't noticed any signals of him going low - he had checked his numbers before we began and although he had been running a bit high he was definitely in a safe zone for driving. When he asked for the juice he said he didn't think he was low, but since he had played soccer that morning he was having it just to keep everything level. I requested that he check his sugars "just in case", and I helped him do that while we were still driving. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">The number on the meter shocked me: it was <i>very low, </i>lower than we had ever experienced while driving. My heart leaped out of my chest as I realized that he was <i>way</i> too low to be behind the wheel. I tried to conceal my sudden panic as I directed him to pull off of the freeway at the next exit. Luckily we were able to do so, treat his low, and I took over driving. All was alright - <i>this time</i> - but it was a true shock to the system, and it stayed with me ... some of the <i>what if?</i> playing back in my head throughout the day. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I was able to manage my own anxiety around the experience and finally shake it off, but I did keep thinking: what did this experience reinforce to me?</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><ul><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b>That diabetes still has the ability to shake me up in ways that I didn't see coming</b> - I sometimes think that after 13 years of living near the disease I have it all "under control" and know what to expect each and every day. Boy, was I wrong! This experience humbled me in a way - reminded me that I can't become complacent with it. Not the most positive lesson, but it is what it is. I have to accept that and move on.<br /><br /></span></li><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b>That it is very important for the PWD to listen to their body's important cues, <i>especially </i>while driving</b> - when I asked my husband (after we had safely stopped) if he had felt this low coming, he said that he had had an "inkling" ... and then admitted that when he asked for the juice it had been more like his second or third "inkling" that he was getting low...but that he hadn't wanted to worry me. Lesson learned? Pull over with that <i>first</i> inkling that a low is happening! Our job as co-pilots is to make sure that our PWD feels okay enough (i.e., he or she is not going to get reprimanded, ridiculed, or "freaked out" at) to admit to a low and to do what they need to do while driving to pull off safely and treat it. It is not worth anyone's safety to do otherwise!<br /><br /></span></li><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b>That all you can do is be prepared</b> - have that juice box handy, make sure the glucose meter is nearby, make sure that you are ready and willing to take over driving if need be. Make it easy on them, so that if and when they need you, you are good to go.</span></li></ul></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I'm sure that some of you have been through a similar situation. What are your "lessons learned"? I'd love to hear about and learn from your experiences. Please share!</span></div>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-20502174011969924442009-12-14T10:35:00.001-08:002009-12-14T11:29:42.885-08:00When Conflict Catches You By Surprise<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRTUuoe87MJW-bW3MI8TQbhBRmwuboVXNB0Jq59MH7UUkjg8YqIUBU0DowvnvPZlYgVfv-_CJtzXhs7aoYXIQy28C6KkQomXo7ytZPQdFfN-TAJhCCpnY3IUyu9vYPKcE5R7CGoDGnXUM/s1600-h/Couple-Conflict.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 199px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRTUuoe87MJW-bW3MI8TQbhBRmwuboVXNB0Jq59MH7UUkjg8YqIUBU0DowvnvPZlYgVfv-_CJtzXhs7aoYXIQy28C6KkQomXo7ytZPQdFfN-TAJhCCpnY3IUyu9vYPKcE5R7CGoDGnXUM/s200/Couple-Conflict.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5415175182475026482" /></a><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">In all honesty, things have been going pretty well with both my husband <i>and</i> with his diabetes. He recently had a check-up with his Endo, and even though he was afraid otherwise (due to high-levels of stress at his job and subsequent blood sugar highs every day) his A1c was great, all numbers fine. Phew. I was proud of him and his effort, because I know, and recognize how much work it takes him to make those numbers happen and keep himself in check. Kudos to him. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">So how does it happen that you're going along, all is well, your spousal "diabetes-anxiety" is kept in check, you're happy with how things are... and then </span></span><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">BAM</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">!, diabetes-related issues once again raise their ugly head and create conflict in your relationship. I thought, after 12+ years of dealing with this that I would be an expert at not "letting it get to me"... but once again I am humbled by the power of the diabetes' effect on our lives and my reactivity to it.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">So here's the story - see if any of this sounds "familiar" to you?: my husband went out on a Saturday evening to have a beer or two with his soccer buddies, a very important one of whom was leaving to move to Bali, so this was his goodbye. My husband left early - around 6pm - saying that he would be home "in a couple of hours". No problem, off he goes, all is well.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Here is the challenge - it was a Saturday. Every Saturday morning my husband goes and plays soccer for 2-3 hours, which is fantastic for both his mental and physical health. Since he's from Barcelona, Spain, this few hours is his "religion", and I don't mess with it! The challenge is that such a burst of physical endurance sets him up for blood sugar lows all weekend - but we're used to this, he's been playing for more than 10 years with this same group of guys, and he's very good at controlling the lows. However, they are something that we've come to expect ... particularly a few hours after he gets home on Saturday, Saturday evening, and then again Sunday mid-morning. He combats it by lowering his basal rate of insulin (he's on the </span></span><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Medtronic</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> pump), </span></span><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">bolusing</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> less, and keeping a close eye on his numbers by checking often. I'm not as "vigilant" as I used to be around these lows, but I still carry some anxiety about it, particularly since the only real significant low episodes he's had (a couple as low as 29!! but most bad ones in the 40s and 50s) have been after he's played soccer.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">So, back to Saturday night - Tony goes out, and my expectation is that he'll be home before 9pm sometime. So 9pm rolls by, 10pm rolls by ... I try to call him on his cell phone, but he doesn't answer ... and by now I'm starting to get that pit of "worry" in my stomach, the one I hate, the one I try to "talk out of myself" by rationalizing what he is probably fine, can't hear the phone, etc. By 11pm, and after the second voicemail I leave, I am starting to get very fearful, my diabetes-anxiety has kicked in full gear. It didn't help that it was crashing and storming outside (something that we don't get very often here in San Diego!), and in my head I was creating all kinds of stories for myself: that he had a low, that he got into an accident on the way home, that the beer mixed with not enough food mixed with soccer could have created a low that clouded his judgment and he drove when he shouldn't have ... oh, the stories go on.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Needless to say that by when Tony called me at 11:10pm saying "did you call me?", it wasn't pretty. It is incredible how quickly anxiety turns to anger when you know that person is fine. And when the key turned in the lock 1/2 hour later?...well, I'll save that for another post.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I'm lucky to say that my husband and I really don't have much conflict in our relationship. But this event, my reaction to it, and the consequent "discussion" that Tony and I had, really showed me how critical </span></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">communication</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> is when you live with someone with type 1. What it all came down to was this: had Tony called me at some point in the evening to let me know that he wasn't going to be only "a couple of hours", but in fact was going to stay longer, all of this would have been averted. The fact that I didn't know, that I was left to worry about all of the possibilities, was what was unfair. It highlighted to me a couple of things, and I wonder if these would be the same for you all:</span></span></div><div><ul><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">It reminded me that living with type 1 is a </span></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">partnership</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> formed of mutual trust and mutual respect. I do my part by being attentive to Tony's needs around diabetes, by being supportive, by watching what I cook, what I shop for and bring into the house, by the choices we make every day. Tony's part (other than proactively trying to manage his diabetes the best he can, which is huge) is to </span></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">check-in</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> with me when he is out, especially if he is gone longer than expected. It is amazing how a quick "hey there" can ease my mind, and help me put my diabetes-anxiety back in its place. His being sensitive to this shows a great deal of respect for me and my feelings.<br /><br /></span></span></li><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">It reminded me how important it is to </span></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">communicate</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> to Tony my needs around his diabetes. I forget sometimes that I have them too! In this case, I had never really shared how important it is for me to have that check-in with him, especially in certain cases like him being out on a stormy night, a Saturday night where he was prone to lows, in a loud environment where he couldn't hear his phone. Had I communicated that to him ahead of time, in a "less heated" discussion, I think the message would have been better received. In the end Tony did listen, but it took us a while before either of us were open to hearing each others' needs. I think we could have done this much more painlessly had we done it ahead of time.</span></span></li></ul><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">But you know what? Lesson learned! Even for those of us who feel we "have it all under control" that diabetes-related conflict can still rear its ugly head when you least expect it. I think the key is maintaining respect for each other by being proactive about it - communicate your needs with your partner, and listen to theirs. And do it before you're in the "middle of it"... for both your sakes!</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><br /></div>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-67610666027322073682009-09-18T14:43:00.000-07:002009-09-19T14:10:30.044-07:00Fact of Life #5: Denial (No, not theirs, yours!)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtCFGK6UPb853zzG8UrSm8NaKrytlhOBATVF72hThDCHjEfTGtS6AJiF24ktj_I8ducs769IrqP76mONPy9ar1SObcxlJuZu2BKzJZBh4BoUVRjTJqX442IQHdqQTrkftJ8xbuohurbW0/s1600-h/denial3.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 176px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtCFGK6UPb853zzG8UrSm8NaKrytlhOBATVF72hThDCHjEfTGtS6AJiF24ktj_I8ducs769IrqP76mONPy9ar1SObcxlJuZu2BKzJZBh4BoUVRjTJqX442IQHdqQTrkftJ8xbuohurbW0/s200/denial3.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5383246196295590722" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">People talk a lot about "<b>denial</b>" when they talk about diabetes... about how the PWD in their life doesn't take care of themselves, how they pretend the diabetes doesn't exist, how they do whatever they want around their disease... and so on, and so on. We've heard it - and talked about it, with friends, family, doctors - many times before.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">But how many times have we actually stopped to look at the flip side of that... at the fact that </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">we</span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> as spouses, partners, loved ones of the PWD may actually be living with <b>a form of denial all our own</b>?</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">I think it is true of anyone who lives with and loves a person with diabetes, that there are many moments of </span></span></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">wishing that the diabetes didn't exist </span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">or was gone magically (poof!) one day. For me it is a matter of wishing I could take it all away from my husband, so that he could go back to those carefree days where he wouldn't have to think about, worry about, or deal with those diabetes ups and downs on an hourly basis. Of course I don't share this feeling with him (until now, that is!), because unfortunately - as we all know - just wishing the diabetes was gone doesn't make it so... or make it </span></span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">productive</span></span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">, so I just push that notion back under the rug from whence it came.</span></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">But I wonder sometimes if that desire to have the diabetes "gone" creates a <b>unique type of </b></span></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">denial </span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">for me as a spouse ... something I would term the<b> "No-Big-Deal-ness"</b> that I find myself feeling or communicating to other people around my husband's diabetes.<br /></span></span><div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">As a spouse, I think that a certain level of "denial" of the disease is healthy ... in order to keep the diabetes in its place and not allow it to rule, or define, our lives. However, I've also come to realize that there are times that I find myself in that different kind of denial... the one where even though I recognize (of course) that the diabetes is there, that it is not going anywhere, that it is a fact of our lives, I still find myself thinking "it's not so bad ... and because it isn't bad now, it never will be. </span></span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Ever, ever, ever.</span></span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">" </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I know I am one of the lucky ones - my husband has had type 1 now for 12 years, with no complications and only a handful of serious low episodes. He is very proactive in his care - wears a pump, checks his numbers many times a day, counts his carbs, sees his doctors and has his A1c checked regularly - and I am always awed and grateful for how well he does all of this. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b>In a way I think his good management of the diabetes has facilitated my unique form of denial</b> ... not to put any blame on him of course (who wouldn't want a spouse who takes care of business?!), but I almost feel like the fact that his diabetes has remained largely "<b>invisible</b>" has allowed me to lull myself into that "no big deal" denial. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">For others whose partner's may not be taking as good care with their diabetes, and may in fact <i>be</i> in denial of their own disease, it may be <b>a realization that</b> <i><b>you</b><b> too</b></i><b> are somehow a "partner in crime",</b> abetting your partner's denial with your own participation in, or encouragement of, things that are<b> </b><i>less than optimal </i>for your loved one's daily management... that regular trip to the ice cream store? Getting upset with your partner with the disruption that checking blood sugars or treating the diabetes makes in your daily routine? Making it difficult for them, and for you?</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Regardless of how we got here, I'm starting to think that this type of "no big deal" denial i<b>sn't a great place for us to be.</b></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:arial;font-size:small;">People have shared with me that one of the worst experiences for them as a spouse of someone with type 1, is finding themselves "<b>unaware</b>" and unprepared for a diabetes-related event. For some it has been the onset of a complication where there didn't used to be one - for others, the first call to the paramedics for a low that couldn't be reversed. And for others who have spouses who have lived with diabetes for many years, it is the worsening of an already existing complication to the point where it truly begins to become a part of their daily lives in a way that cannot be denied.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">How do we prepare ourselves and open up the "can of worms" of feelings around our partner's diabetes that our current denial - our it's "no-big-deal-ness" - protects us from? How do we come to terms with our loved one's disease and give it a place in our lives... a place that <i>respects </i>it for what it is, yet <b>empowers </b>us to stay in control of our emotions and reactions to it?</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Here is my take on it - I encourage you to comment and give me yours:</span></span></div><div><ol><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:arial;font-size:small;"><b>Be realistic - </b>Get the information you need to know what you're dealing with. Where is your partner's diabetes at? What challenges do they have right now? Learn as much as you can, both from your loved one as well as from others in your diabetes network, and let that frame what you think (and what you feel) about where the diabetes is and is likely to go in the near future. In this case, what you don't know <i>can</i> hurt you (and your partner), so now's the time to get real. It's the only way that you can be on the same page with your partner.<br /><br /></span></li><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:arial;font-size:small;"><b>Get angry or sad if you need to </b>- Once you know what you're dealing with, it's natural to feel sad or angry or <i>both </i>if the information is not what you were hoping for. You may run the gamut of emotions - from fear, to loss, to anger at your partner, to <i>relief</i> if the news is better than you expected. Regardless of what it is, I think it is critical to really stop and<i> feel the feelings</i> you have around this. You may or may not choose to share them with your partner - however, it is important to find someone to talk about it with, to get it out in the open. Empower yourself by acknowledging and addressing your feelings head-on. Burying your head under the rug never helped anyone!<br /><br /></span></li><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:arial;font-size:small;"><b>Accept it</b> - This is a biggie, and it takes time. The goal is to get to a place where you feel "okay" with the truth of your spouse's diabetes, and you know your role and are comfortable with it. You don't feel the need to downplay (or dramatize) the diabetes, but are realistic with where it is and where it is going. You recognize the possibilities (good and bad) in the future, and have thought about how they might affect you (and how you might respond). You've come to a place where the diabetes just<i><b> is</b></i> in your life, and you're okay with that.<br /><br /></span></li><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:arial;font-size:small;"><b>Partner Up and Move on </b>- I think that more than just <i>accepting</i> our loved one's diabetes, we need to feel the ability to partner with them and move past it. This may mean figuring out a way to have the disease in your life, but not having it BE your life.... having those life strategies and "plan B's" that you can implement if things go south, and not being unalterably shocked or affected if diabetes-related events surprise you. It means having some resilience, together as a couple facing the disease and moving forward. Living well with the diabetes ... <i>both </i>of you.</span></li></ol></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span><div><br /></div></div></div></div>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-37080307238000624852009-09-06T16:38:00.001-07:002009-09-08T17:43:07.615-07:00Fact of Life #4: Diabetes Never Takes a Vacation!<div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh940OjanS0kPtnoUmCdmalKH7cR2J2LoykDF3VLBjJqEHamL-gKl5uG0HsYbMsH9T0SAzL_zaTukmh-gKWzL6DV3qhwWQL8_cF5-PUrgqEhjWW4eA9_Q9I3eovZvIpmCJBR1RtCDWY4Qg/s1600-h/vacation-from-vacation.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 134px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5378505069970714498" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh940OjanS0kPtnoUmCdmalKH7cR2J2LoykDF3VLBjJqEHamL-gKl5uG0HsYbMsH9T0SAzL_zaTukmh-gKWzL6DV3qhwWQL8_cF5-PUrgqEhjWW4eA9_Q9I3eovZvIpmCJBR1RtCDWY4Qg/s200/vacation-from-vacation.jpg" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Well, we're back from a wonderful 3 week trip to Spain... Since my husband Tony is from Barcelona, we went over to visit family and to enjoy the Balearic Islands a little bit. For the most part, it was idyllic ... sun, the sea, warm air, salt, the food, the people... glorious. And it would have been completely glorious, that is, if diabetes hadn't decided to "bud in" once again, and remind us that - indeed - </span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">diabetes never takes a vacation.</span></b></span><div></div></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">But I'm getting ahead of myself... let me share with you all a wee bit of our vacation story, and see if any of you can relate. Firstly (and this was a big deal) it was our first time flying overseas with not just ONE child in tow, but with TWO ... our son is 6 and our daughter is 18 months... and for those of you with kids, you know how it </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">does </span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">up the chaos/exhaustion a wee bit. Especially when you are juggling carry-on bags, toys/snacks, diapers, diabetes supplies and trying to keep your children entertained, your partner's numbers in check, and yourself sane for the 2-3 planes (and 2-3 security checkpoints) and 20+ hours of travel.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">When we finally landed bleary-eyed in Barcelona, the first exciting thing that happened is that my husband Tony realized (with horror) that the toiletries bag he had packed in our carry-on bag that contained all of his carefully prepared insulin cartridges for his pump, as well as all of his vials of </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">humalog</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">/syringes, had vanished somewhere on one of the planes between San Diego and Barcelona. We immediately tried to work with Delta Airlines baggage services to figure out where it might be (not an easy task in Spain with two tired kids crying), and whether somebody had picked it up from where we </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">guessed </span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">was underneath one of our seats (that's the last time we buy a black toiletries bag that gets </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">camouflaged</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> on the floor in the chaos of trying to get kids off the plane and make a tight connection!). It never did materialize... because who thinks to put a Delta tag on a toiletries bag that is supposed to be </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">inside</span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> your carry-on?? </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">So there we were, in Barcelona with no insulin for Tony other than what was in his current pump cartridge ... so we had about one day to get more. Luckily for us, Tony is a Spanish citizen and so was able to go to a medical clinic in Barcelona, see a doctor, and get a prescription for more insulin (thank god for socialized medicine!). But it still took a day out of the trip to make all this happen... I didn't mention that Tony's glasses were also in that toiletries case, so he had to decide whether he could wear his only pair of contacts 24/7, or get new glasses made. Chalk up another day for that.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">But luckily, we had everything in place for our short trip over to the Balearic Island of Menorca (next to Mallorca, for those of you who know the islands). We were looking forward to a hassle-free time, keeping diabetes in its place... being more active, swimming, snorkeling, etc.... and it was like this, until the next exciting thing happened about 4 days into our stay: Tony's insulin pump stopped working! One day, boom!, 7pm on a Thursday evening, he didn't have any insulin delivery. So here we are, on an island in the Mediterranean, trying to figure out what to do, with a weekend approaching. We were also staying in a town where we didn't have a phone, and while there was a phone booth in the plaza, we still had to drive to the next town over to buy a calling card to be able to make calls to the U.S. Yes, things are more difficult over there... but most of the time you can roll with it! When it is urgent matters however, things seem a wee bit more, shall we say, </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">trying</span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">. So after trying to figure out our game plan, we spent many hours on the phone first with Medtronic U.S. (who couldn't send us a new pump directly to the island due to Customs issues with durable medical devices), and then with Meditronic Spain in Madrid, where we were told it wasn't as simple as sending us a new pump, since the European equipment is different and the pump had to have a serial number that corresponded with Tony's doctor's original prescription for liability reasons. They also determined that the pump malfunctioned mostly likely due to the heat and humidity that we were experiencing in Spain (that I can agree with - there wasn't one minute that we didn't have that sheen of sweat on us). Okay, so there we were. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">In the end we were able to get a new pump sent to us in the island by having Medtronic U.S. ship a new pump to the Madrid office of Medtronic internally (to limit the days it would sit in customs), who then shipped it on to us. All in all it took about 6 days ... In the meantime, Tony only had fast-acting Humalog with him, and for the first few days had to get up multiple times during the night (every 2 hours or so) to test his sugars and inject what he needed. We called his diabetes educator here in San Diego from a payphone, and we determined that if we could get ahold of some Lantus in Menorca, Tony could use that in combination with the Humalog until the pump arrived. With luck (and on our second try), we found a sympathetic pharmacist at one of the local pharmacies who sold us the Lantus without a prescription. We were so grateful - one thing was easy! - however, we had to buy the whole box of insulin pens (6 I think) so ended up paying 76euros for this (about $110 USD). But we whipped out our VISA card with glee! We were just so happy to have this one small victory.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Thankfully the new pump arrived unscathed and worked great. But the experience, and the amount of hours/days of our vacation lost to trying to deal with diabetes-related issues, remained in our heads. One of the reasons why I wanted to share this all with you, is that there were some significant </span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">"lessons learned"</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> from this trip - even for us, who consider ourselves fairly well-travelled, diabetes-saavy, organized people! I hope some of you can benefit from what we learned - here they are:</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, serif;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Lessons Learned:</span></span></b></span></div><div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">1. Never lose sight of the "important" stuff in transit:</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> I couldn't believe that of all the things that we were juggling on the plane, the one thing that slipped our grasp was the most important (who cares about that portable DVD-player, </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">really</span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">?!). Keep your eyes on the vital supplies - take inventory of them before you get caught in the crush of people trying to get off the plane - and if possible, store them in separate bags so that if one gets lost you still have a backup.<br /></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></b></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">2. Make sure you have a back-up prescription from your doctor in the US for all vital stuff: </span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">It would have made life easier (and saved us half a day in doctor's appointments) if we had thought to bring a doctor's prescription from the U.S. for any required supplies (insulin - both Humalog and Lantus, test strips, syringes, etc.) </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">whether we thought we'd need them or not</span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">.<br /><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">3. Be organized!</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> Before travelling create a "travel checklist" (that you can refer to any time you need to take a trip) to make sure you have all of the supplies you need with you, and then some. </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> Always pack more than you think you'll need!</span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> Also, make sure you have all the important phone numbers with you (your doctor or diabetes educator in the US, their fax number, your pump tech support, etc.), and be prepared to make calls once you are at your destination (i.e., buy calling cards [multiple cards help, those minutes always run out faster than you think ... especially if you're waiting on hold], or rented cell phones, etc.)<br /><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">4. Have a "Plan B" in case things go wrong and you need to go to your contingency plan: </span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">For us it was remembering how to give shots and use Lantus (hence the call to the diabetes educator), and figuring out how to bridge the gap until the new pump arrived. It would have been much less stressful if we had thought this through ahead of time and gotten all of the information we needed.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">5. Know how your insurance works in whatever country you are going to:</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> We had the luxury of being in a place where my husband had access to local healthcare. If we hadn't, it would have been much more difficult to go to the clinic. Make sure you know how you could access health services in any country you are visiting, and how your insurance would function if that was necessary. At minimum, know how to file a claim after the fact for any expenses you incur while travelling (like our $110 Lantus).</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">6. Know how the health / hospital system works in whatever country you are travelling to ... and remember, they are most likely very different from yours!</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> A little bit of research in this area will save you a LOT of headache. Just doing your due diligence will help you in the event that you actually need to access the local healthcare - and it will help you know what to expect. Don't expect diabetes care to be the same as it is in the U.S. - in my experience, even in a country like Spain, diabetes mentality is a good 10-15 years behind the times.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">7. Have the "in-country" phone numbers of any medical equipment you require: </span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">For us, it would have been smart for us to know the numbers of the Spanish office of </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Medtronic</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> in Madrid, in case we needed them. Knowing what we know now about how customs work with medical equipment, I would definitely have those numbers handy in case you need to contact / work with people in the country you are in.<br /><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">8. Find out what the overseas names are for products you use: </span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">For example, in Europe Humalog = Novorapid ... and it would have been good for us to know these things before we tried to talk with pharmacists and medical professionals about getting prescriptions for these.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">9. Don't expect that airlines have a *clue* what a diabetes meal should consist of, so plan ahead for food on international flights:</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> This one has just become a major pet peeve of mine! We thought ordering Tony "diabetic meals" for the international portion of the trip would be a good thing, but after the second meal where his breakfast tray consisted of a white bagel, whole sugar jam, a banana and orange juice, along with a note that read "this diabetic meal prepared especially for you by Delta Airlines" (I kid you not!!), we realized that we really are the only ones who know what/how a person with diabetes should eat... especially for a flight where you are sedentary for 10-18 hours. Bring your own food, you'll be glad you did!<br /></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></b></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">10. Don't let it get to you!! Do what you need to do, but don't let diabetes mishaps define or ruin your vacation: </span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">This one is really true - </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">yes</span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">, diabetes issues are awful when you are trying to have a good time on your trip, but they only interfere as much as you let them. I am extremely grateful that Tony kept his chin up and didn't let all of this get him (and us) down. He did what he needed to do, to the best of his ability. My reaction was to partner with him and support him as he made all of the phone calls, visited the pharmacies, and kept track of how his numbers were going ... I also made the conscious choice (there really was no choice to make) to stay positive and to cheer the </span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">good</span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> things that happened... the little wins that got us closer to getting him back on track. What were a few days lost on our trip, when it was his health and safety at stake? It sure put everything in perspective... and it all worked out. In the end.</span></span></div></div>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-47560974379852880182009-08-13T09:27:00.000-07:002009-09-15T13:29:54.311-07:00"Fact of Life" #3: You've Got to be a Team Player<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpcFf6WUZBrV2ZyHIfMJjzLCZqzDcp_w1YZQipij3dVublSWOP34tT_AcA1lDR7XfO1C_3hG09fz1jq3M9jfpy9Tz7-K8B8ckCUwytMJa4y6QDH9b9JC1FmeWRTr1ccRF_3WL6u9a-5RM/s1600-h/couple_walking.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 178px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpcFf6WUZBrV2ZyHIfMJjzLCZqzDcp_w1YZQipij3dVublSWOP34tT_AcA1lDR7XfO1C_3hG09fz1jq3M9jfpy9Tz7-K8B8ckCUwytMJa4y6QDH9b9JC1FmeWRTr1ccRF_3WL6u9a-5RM/s200/couple_walking.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5369494391160987026" /></a><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Diabetes is not something that any of us signs up for. Not our spouse/loved one, not us. This can be particularly true for those of us whose partner developed the disease </span></span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">during </span></span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">our relationship, and it comes as a complete surprise. </span></span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">However, </span></span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">even if we went into the relationship knowing that our partner had diabetes, I think at some point the intricacies and daily grind of it get to be too much... and we think "how can I continue doing this?"... </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Now, a disclaimer: I write this knowing </span></span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">how much harder</span></span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> it is for my husband with type 1 than it is for me. I need to say that! He has the hourly balancing act on his plate 24/7, whereas I get to forget about the diabetes for long periods of time throughout the day. I wish he had that luxury.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">The funny thing about living with someone with type 1, is that over time I've realized how critical it is to approach the diabetes as a "team sport". If I think that we're both on the same side with wanting to do things right, then it becomes easier to understand and support my husband. I am less at odds with any of his choices / ways of coping. It is absolutely true that diabetes affects everyone around it ... it is a "family disease" ... and so with that in mind, I've figured out ways for me to not only show my support for my husband, but also take my place as his team-mate, and to hopefully remove a tiny bit of the daily burden off of his shoulders. </span></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Here are some of the ways that I have found useful to act in that team capacity:</span></span><div><ul><li><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Make healthy choices when shopping</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> - Since I am the one mostly responsible for the food shopping and cooking in my house, I try very hard not to bring those things into the house that will be tempting for my husband (and for me!). Those wonderful croissants, chips, white breads, dessert items... the vast majority of the time I leave them in exchange for healthier, complex carb items, fruits, fresh vegetables, proteins... things that I know are better for all of us. We don't need that other stuff! Because I know that if it is in the house, it will get eaten... so I try hard not to bring it in.<br /><br /></span></span></li><li><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Be a "co-pilot" in the car</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> - Since my husband prefers to drive (and I like him to as well, takes the stress off of me!) whenever we take road-trips I make sure that we are well-stocked in the front seat of the car with anything we might need for lows while driving. I stay alert, stay engaged with my husband to ensure that if he doesn't pick up on those subtle hints of a low while we're driving, I do. It is probably the only time that I ask him to check his numbers before we leave the driveway (then I can check it off my co-pilot check-list ... "numbers normal, <i>check! </i>we're good to go..."). Stay supportive, but don't freak out. Offer to drive if he needs time to keep his sugars in a safe zone.<br /><br /></span></span></li><li><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Allow them to make their own choices, but try not to tempt</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> - This kind of follows along with point #1, but if there is an opportunity for something out of the ordinary... a special dessert, etc... I always try to let my husband choose how much he'll indulge in any given thing. He's an adult, he can make his own choices... he knows his body and his insulin better than I ever will. I do however try not to create too many opportunities where he'll have to make that choice over and over! If it's occasional, I stay out of it... and let him enjoy.<br /><br /></span></span></li><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"><b>Understand the important numbers</b> - Over the last 12 years I've become more educated and well-versed in things like A1cs, <span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:arial, sans-serif;"><em style="font-style: normal; ">creatinine</em> </span>levels, cholesterol numbers, etc., than I ever thought I would at my age. But I've stayed interested and involved in my husband's journey with these things. I attend appointments with his Endocrinologist when I can, just to stay visible and to be involved in the "behind the scenes" talks that my husband has about any issues or concerns he's having. When he gets a good A1c back from his labs, we cheer! I know the hard work it takes to accomplish something like that, and I make sure to recognize that.<br /><br /></span></span></li><li><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">Collaborate, don't dictate</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> - if there is one thing that I have learned </span></span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">doesn't</span></span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> work in my relationship with my husband, it is my becoming the "Diabetes Police". How many years did it take me to figure that one out?? Only about 12... I recognize now that it is my </span></span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">collaboration</span></span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> with my husband that is meaningful, my ability to partner, to be a team-player in his diabetes management that keeps us aligned and moving forward in the same direction. As soon as I feel myself slipping into "dictator" mode, I can see the reaction and the subtle (and not so subtle!) ways it pulls us apart into different, opposing directions. Not a good place to be in a relationship. It takes time, and some good communication, to figure out how to become that collaborator... but it is possible. And </span></span><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;">definitely</span></span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:small;"> worth it.</span></span></li></ul><div><br /></div></div></div>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-53928512904158562762009-08-04T23:54:00.000-07:002009-09-15T13:30:12.516-07:00“Fact of Life” #2: Anxiety<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgFlfSPbVkE7ETNS3PfRFPeYLFJJDlytUx8r1A8R15AxoQEw1eH7U8xQZeREk7P2et4_3gJc4_vhE0GoH0J6xFqLpCU0Zr_il9e9HaKIQoFtyruMmMEd8DUL4x40xcNrEZZHxlR-okvls/s1600-h/anxiety2.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 133px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5366372677674263426" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgFlfSPbVkE7ETNS3PfRFPeYLFJJDlytUx8r1A8R15AxoQEw1eH7U8xQZeREk7P2et4_3gJc4_vhE0GoH0J6xFqLpCU0Zr_il9e9HaKIQoFtyruMmMEd8DUL4x40xcNrEZZHxlR-okvls/s200/anxiety2.jpg" /></a><span style="font-family:arial;">What’s the one thing that all of us who are partnered with someone with diabetes have in common? We are all anxious. It varies by degree, but it is a common strain that runs beneath many a calm, functional exterior. It can be related to fear of lows, anxiety around complications or co-existing medical problems, fear of the future, or the <em>biggie</em>, death of our loved one. Since my husband was diagnosed with type 1 in 1997, I have felt the omnipresent sense of worry that stays with me day-in and day-out. Sometimes the worry is very specific (“he’s driving home – is he low?”), sometimes more generalized (“I can’t reach him … what's happened?!”), but it is always there. After 12 years it doesn’t bother me as much anymore – and I have learned some important ways of dealing with this unique form of “diabetes-anxiety”... they include the following:<br /></span><br /><ul><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Try not to “anticipate”</strong> – just because something has happened in the past does not necessarily mean it will happen this time … I try hard to live in the present moment and judge situations for what they are.<br /></span></li><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Actively gather information</strong> <strong>from people who know what they are talking about</strong> – for me, <em>knowledge is power</em>, and it helps quell my anxiety (about my husband’s lows, or his risks for complications for example) if I know what I can expect to happen… asking people I trust (my husband’s physician or other people I know with diabetes) helps me to feel prepared “in the event of” - of course I recognize that things may always change, but at least I know what is likely to happen in most instances<br /></span></li><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Come up with tools or things to make sure you are prepared</strong> – I try to be active in my coping ...making sure we always have juice in the house for lows, or that I know exactly where the glucagon is (even though we’ve never had to use it!). In this way I know that if these things are needed, we’re covered, and I can relax just a bit.<br /></span></li><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Remember that you’re not alone in this</strong> – when things get too much sometimes, it helps me to remember that there are others out there who understand my situation, and who are facing the same things every day. All I have to do is seek these people out (by connecting with friends or finding groups online), and I’ll find people who really “get it”. Hearing other peoples’ stories about their loved ones with diabetes always put my own into perspective.<br /></span></li><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Try to be kind to yourself</strong> and have some understanding of any “knee-jerk” anxiety around your loved one’s diabetes – it is not easy to constantly feel “on guard” around my loved one’s health, especially when it is related to a past negative event (e.g., a near-miss while driving, a midnight call to 911). However, I take responsibility for my own anxiety and try to separate out the “rational” from the “irrational” worry about his diabetes that I may feel on any given day. It’s my responsibility not to bring baggage into our daily relationship. He doesn’t need one more thing to have to manage!<br /></span></li><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Try to work out better ways of responding</strong> – someone once told me if something wasn’t working, to try doing the <em>opposite</em> to see what would happen. For me it’s been the same with my reactions to my husband’s diabetes – sometimes when I feel the most anxious about a situation or his response to it (or lack thereof!), I try to be the most calm, the most objective… and it often works to stop my anxiety in its tracks! I feel more empowered, and it also seems to make the situation better… <em>go figure!</em></span></li></ul>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4400315208872910657.post-79055376449851280412009-08-04T22:50:00.000-07:002009-09-15T13:30:33.820-07:00“Fact of Life” #1: Blood Sugar Lows<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkhELYbu9FKq1iTMl2PkeOj4i5PhVd58nxAj7LIxQ1BR1SMIjdbKMyF4J0RZD4ae7PDpHtTLhvIcotQxv7c2tXZZyFImXL3lik5_WSBgkbz7NjNLfJyFDz6dCY_ALwwYjBb53XyAyivIw/s1600-h/anxiety-.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5366355396858148178" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgkhELYbu9FKq1iTMl2PkeOj4i5PhVd58nxAj7LIxQ1BR1SMIjdbKMyF4J0RZD4ae7PDpHtTLhvIcotQxv7c2tXZZyFImXL3lik5_WSBgkbz7NjNLfJyFDz6dCY_ALwwYjBb53XyAyivIw/s200/anxiety-.jpg" /></a><span style="font-family:arial;">One of the hardest things for people who love someone with type 1 diabetes is dealing with the blood sugar lows that happen on a fairly regular basis. Over time we may get used to them, and get more competent at helping our loved one come back to normal levels more quickly. We also become experts at recognizing the signs that a low is imminent, if not already happening (for me it’s all in the eyes!). Since my husband was diagnosed with type 1 in 1997 and keeps his diabetes in very tight control, we’ve been through many, many low episodes – some worse than others. </span><br /><div><span style="font-family:arial;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="font-family:arial;">Over the last 12 years I’ve learned some very important lessons – what I call <strong>“How to Keep Your Head When Your Type 1 Spouse is Losing Theirs in a Low”</strong>… here they are:</span></div><br /><ul><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Don’t panic</strong> – you freaking out can cause the person extra stress which can actually make them go lower … so hang in there, and project a calm face if you can … <em>even if you’re absolutely faking it<br /></em></span></li><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Be supportive</strong> – offer to get them some juice and/or make them a quick snack … just because you “felt like one too”<br /></span></li><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Don’t force them to treat their low the way you think they should and/or “hover”</strong> – use your judgment, but remember that they are adults, not children, and treat them accordingly<br /></span></li><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Let them guide you</strong> – if they just need space to come back up, give it to them without overdoing the “just checking in”<br /></span></li><br /><li><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>Have empathy for what they are going through</strong> – remember that they didn’t do this on purpose, or to get attention, to delay doing something around the house, or because they “felt like it” … <em>lows feel bad, no matter what.</em></span></li></ul>Ashley Wendelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10105400567240252583noreply@blogger.com6